i love you

i love you world, and its hard to love everybody and not just one. its hard to try and say i'm loving people who need love in Costa Rica. when i'm really not feeling the love in what i'm learning about volunteer development work . i mean i guess i gotta bring the love, and i'm being a little self-involved with my heart self lately... but anyway, we learn about where our sites will be for the two years of service on FRIDAY. the BIIIIG fateful day. I'm still holding out a thread of hope that i get Limon. I've got one more interview with the placement director this week. When i first spoke with her she said it was not likely i'd get Limon..but we shall seeeeeeeeeee.

I VISITED Limon for two weekends in a row! I came back from my Holy Week vacation majorly cooled out, i was so chill and sooo low key and as i started interacting with my training team i felt myself get more and more tense again. Maybe it'll be easier to manage my emotional health when i have daaaays of tranquilidad. the tranquila (peace) spirit is supposed to be contagious. It also wasn't cool that we looked at medical pictures of some horrific Sexually Transmitted Infections and talked about colors and textures of discharge, all right before lunch. I think its a scare tactic because the statistics say that 90% of single volunteers are sexually active by their 20th month in country and that only 30% use condoms everytime....its a sad stat...for tru. I think the number includes sexual activity with visitors, the medical officer kept mentioning that sex with Canadians and other gringos counts...lol so whatever we are duly warned...jez

So, I'm on my way to spend MORE money that i don't have at this PHAT vegetarian restaurant called "Vishnu" I guess i do have about $50 American dollars that i will probably definitely spend before I get out of training. so 50 dollars tymes 500 colones on the dollar = ummmm..... wheres the computer calculator..... that gives me 25000 colones...that about covers the vacation i just took in Puerto Viejo this weekend...ok so if dinner tonight is around 5000 I'm still in the clear. But after this i have GOT to stick to the budget that i layed out the other week..otherwise i wont have the bus fare to get to training activities! THAT'll be a laugh.

But yeah one beautiful thing on the horizon is that my couzin Nina may be brigning me some much needed supplies by flying inot the Costa Rica airport and returnign the sam day, just to bring me the stuff!!! I would love that! and i think its pretty close to workign out. As weel! I could get my guitar down here and have a heart hobby and a TEACHER! because my companero David may be able to get his gutiar becausee his gutitar and his brother are in Atlanta, and his brother may be able to get the guitar to Nina who would get the guitars and my other stuff here to me in one day! Talk about beating the shipping costs!! hahahahahaha!

Ok so we're headed to dinner with Kathy whos site i hope to inherit to eat veggie food and talk all about Limon!!!..and other stuff.